“Having devoured the book in one sitting, we all knew instantly that this was a project we simply had to bring to the screen here at Pulse Films. “ What Have I Done? is an urgent and vital exploration of female mental health, which manages to transcend the personal confines of Laura’s own experience through an intricacy of storytelling that feels at once both singular and universal,” said Abigail Dennis, Pulse Films’ head of development. And I feel very proud and excited to have Pulse Films in my village.”ĭockrill’s past work includes the recently BAFTA-nominated short film Goldfish - which Pulse Films produced - and CILIP Carnegie Medal nominated books, including the YA novel Lorali and the Darcy Burdock series, which also was shortlisted for the Waterstones Children’s Book Prize. They say it takes a village to make a baby, it takes the same to breathe life into a story too. And that is what is needed to conceive something that people can believe in. And that’s what Pulse Films are all about truth and love. My story, as scary as it is, is ultimately a human-being story- it is a story of true love. A team that would ride down this mystifying road with me – ugly monsters and all. “A team that were unapologetic, tenacious, courageous and ambitious. So, if I was going to retell the trauma for screen I had to collaborate with an indestructible team that were willing to push storytelling to the limits, without boundaries or compromise,” said Dockrill. I see What Have I Done? as precious cargo! Writing the book saved my life.

“Revisiting my experience of postpartum psychosis is not something I can get wrong, I value my recovery so much. Now she is determined to break the stigma around post-natal mental health, shatter the romanticized expectations of perfect motherhood, and empower parents with the message - you are not alone. Not only has she gotten better, she has come out on the other side stronger and more assured. Despite this grueling experience, her story is a hopeful one. A traumatic birth, anxiety about the baby, sleep deprivation, a slow recovery - all these things piled up until Dockrill, like any new mum, felt overwhelmed. Adele, a close friend of Dockrill’s, describes the memoir as “a book to save a whole generation of women.”ĭockrill could not wait to meet her new baby, but as she went into labor, things began to go wrong and she started to struggle. “Written from the frontline of mental illness, this heart-breaking and uplifting memoir is about resilience, love and finding your way to the other side,” according to a description. Legend of the Croisette: The Slow, Pure Cinema of Nuri Bilge Ceylan

Lorali by laura dockrill